In My Mind

I want to share what I have going on in there.

A lot of stuff is simultaneously going on in my life. 

Not that anything is going wrong, but have you ever had like all the appliances at home on, on a summer day and then all of a sudden... blackout? 

Maybe that's kinda how I have been feeling. 

Mhmm... that's a pretty good metaphor for whats going on. 

(Why couldn't I say that instead of bitching at people? Who will ever know!?)

Moving on. 

So my outside, like the people I get to love and care about, they are all doing spectacular! 

My boyfriend is super super successful, at work in his personal life and all that good stuff! 

I'm proud of him. Plus he's hot! 

My best friends are killing the game! They are all kick-asses at work, at home, and in their relationships. 

Even though they go through super tough times, they keep it together and always have time to have great makeup! (You know you do!) 

At work, everyone is losing their mind, but that's fine. I'm HR nobody wants to talk to me anyways! (that's kind of a plus! haha)

Now with me. Check out the vid... I've been acting like Marc when I should be like Pussyfoot! 

Work is good. I have a couple of projects I'm spearheading and it feels great to be the lead. Why lie?

Besides the projects, I also have the day to day, and helping my employees is literally why I do this job! So being able to do that makes me feel great. Mind you, I work from 7:45am to 4:15pm. So... I'm kinda tired when I'm done. Since of course, I don't go to bed at 8:30pm 🙀 like really? Nobody does. I like get home from school at like 9:30 pm. 

Usually (Mon-Wed) I head to school. And I am like a kid with ants in her pants! I am beyond excited to finish my MBA program! I have been working really hard to finish this! I had made plans to finish the program next May, but because I have been able to get things done, I will be able to complete the program in December. I save myself the tuition of one semester and 5 months of school!!!! 

Projects on Projects. Teams here teams there. Reading hundreds of pages about companies each weekend and having to give up other things I rather be doing to do the work on the weekends. It's a lot. I would hear grad students talk about all the work it was, but you never truly understand until you are doing it yourself. 

Thursdays I shut my brain off after work, since I don't have class, and Fridays after work I get to be giddy about spending time with my babe. Fridays, come on, I can't do any homework. So I give myself Fridays! 

Now at home, thankfully, I have parents who a great support. but sometimes they need my help too. So I try to help, but it's also energy and bank account draining.

So far everything is great!!! but one on top of the next, I'm stretched out like Elastigirl! 

anyway, I guess maybe because I'm not as strong as I wish I was? 

I still cook myself lunch and dinner, I take care of my two cats, I pay all my bills and I try to show my loved ones I care by sending notes or texts. I'm planning to buy a house. And I always try to be a good example to my brothers and my niece and nephew. 

Am I complaining? Am I weak? I really don't know. I watch what I eat, I stay active and I take my vitamins. I read and go to church and make sure to shower regularly. Haha. Is everyone's life like this? Is everyone complaining about the great parts of their lives? After writing this, I see the blessings I have. And I know it's all for good. Grad school will be over soon. Perhaps I'll buy the house. Hopefully, I'll get married. There's so much to come. And I want to be ready. I hate to think that by not appreciating what I have and I'm missing my chance to love what I've got. I really am thankful for all of it. 

But my mind is small, and sometimes I need to breath deep and take it hour by hour. And thank you to those who stand by me, listen to me and are patient with me. I promise if I win the lotto, you will totally get part of it! xoxo 

Anyway, did you really read all of this? Also, please don't stalk me. I watch criminal minds, I know how to find you! Now a video of dancing galaxy cats!